Had been in an emotional state these days.
I don't know why but stuff resembling the past keep on popping out.
I'm not sure what i'm handling with right now,
but it's sure a biggy for me.
I hate the feeling. It just doesn't feel right being with some other guy.
It wasn't the same, not even fucking close.
But one things for sure, i've to move on.
I realize i'm just no one to stop him if he has another girl.
Reading this certain blog which i randomly just click and read.
It's like an urge and yet, i know it's not me reading blogs.
I tell stuff for me not for others, but if they do read that's just their problem.
And exactly, reading that girls blog seems to create a problem for me.
Not about her but the fact that the whole shit reminds me of myself.
Why? Because that girl is attached to my friend's ex.
That friend of mine had been with him for two years and they broke up.
Then he went dating and be in a relationship with all kinds of girls.
And still it's funny that everytime he falls and broke up with all those girls,
he went searching for my friend back.
I just fucking hell feel for my friend because i so understand how she feels.
Fuck up life. This is the shit.
But now, things just have to go.
Now, we want freedom right..
But i know when we see each other,
all that freedom shit aint in mind but a whole lot of different shit instead.
You know what i mean.
That look like ..damn.
Some stuff just couldn't be explained.
Its just that i know we know.
Stoppit la fana. Haiz..
I know most of you just don't understand but well,
you would if you're the girl whom have experience that deep real love
where you know when the guy talks about marrying you,
you just hell shit know he mean it but yet
the relationship abruptly ends. So far i only know two.
“ I’m so myself & I do random things. “
Andreas [♥]