I dunno but everything's starting to show even more clearly.
Thank god. Haha..
So yeah, this morning i woke up and i just lie on my bed.
And naturally somehow i start thinking deep.
That's when it hit me hard.
I just realize how fucking unhappy i am in my life.
Ever since my last ex, he made me feel so devastated.
Well pretty much got into a mental breakdown and all that shit.
And all the guys i went out with after him,
i just..i don't know. it doesn't seem right.
I wasn't myself in front of any of them.
because i thought maybe it's time for a change.
I wanna settle down like with my last ex.
But there was no confidence in me.
So i tried to be cautious in everything i do..
and it turns out i was making a fool of myself.
Having people talk about me when i know
im not that person they're talking about.
Wait till my gf's hear this anw.. whatever shit they say about me.
I know they're just gonna go wtf.
Cause well my attitude nvr change towards my gfs in anw..
Or well anyone who knows me from last time la.
Like ok maybe you are all wondering what the guys had to say about me.
Someone called me a bimbo and another called me immature.
All in a days time. Two guys. Two words. And one word from me. Fuck!
Somehow, although when i got the first news..
I was thinking ' doesnt he haf the dick to tell that to my face?'
Id always hated passing of messages anw.
Like you wanna say it..say it to me.
If u noe me well im too frank..
Until even once i got confronted by my gf's abt that 'frank' thingee.
And i dont mind whatever shit u wanna tell me. Just tell.
Haha..
Bimbo ehk? Immature ehk?
Entala ehk.. Gasak krg la..
So contradicting with all my testis..
all the comments from my friends..
all the truth game whr u're suppose to tell honestly what u think of that person..
and all the shit wan told me.
If i had my old friendster still i would have laugh my ass off
reading my testis way back from sec 2.
(pasal wan jugak aku kene delete. hahh)
pple either say im too matured for my age.
Or smart but sometimes u can be a bitch.
Or too frank of course.
Or a minah with brains.
and wan always like to say ,' sorry la budak pandai'.
And after that break-up, i became a total dumbass.
Hahaha! Fucking funny life la.
So from here i can conclude that..
ouh well maybe i should just be myself.
Be myself, have fun and since everyone prefer my old me.
Might as well right. Hahaha.
So yeah, look out for the old me ya!
I just wanna be happy again..feel free.. and enjoy.. Yeah!
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ok2. one more thing.
damn! sometimes i just hate horoscopes.
It's like u just don't wanna believe it but somehow
can't help it but deny that's the truth they're talking about.
So i was reading CLEO.. and here's my horoscope for the month anw.
Love: Hiding your intensity and passion will bring confusion but openly living them will bring amazing results. Life: You'll be the toast of the town and going out of your way to impress bosses will take you far.Relationships to do with home and family are about to improve. Ok fine. Im getting more closer to my brothers..which is kinda weird. And my mom seems to have forgive me( im nt too sure but it lks like it only k) about the caught drinking thingee. And my father seem to start showing more concern and it's such a relief to at last hear his voice here and there again. And it's weird that my father is starting to pick up calls from my home phone. So get ready friends to hear a voice you may never heard of. Haha!
And as for the love part.. no comments. I just said all the shit above anw. Go figure..
True but i still don't want to believe it. But still fucking true. Haiz..
Entalaehk.. Hahaha.. K time to doze off.Nitez!
“ I’m so myself & I do random things. “
Andreas [♥]