so what now..
i thought we're suppose to be friends..
i thought it's all over..
and yet, there goes your friend talking to me.
there goes all the shit starting to run in my head again..
i was really trying my fucking best to move on.
and now? there goes this shit again.
and for you to think my life is so great.
yeah, life's great men.
I lived in sucha perfect world.
Life's fucking perfect when my mom thinks im the most idiotic in the family.
it's perfect when the guy i really love left so suddenly.
it's perfect when i have a week to pass up my fucking project..
it's perfect that im crying every day publicly or not..
it's perfect when im struggling to pay my bills..
it's perfect in every way..
it's perfect to see all my girlfriends with their guys..
it's perfect to know that everyone thinks im a lunatic with that 'bomoh' shit going around..
it's perfect that i fucking feel lonely..
it's just perfect.
Go! Go tell all your friends..
tell them,' you're scared and whatever fuck'.
i thought we had a deal there somewhere.
i thought i make it clear i wont do anything and that we're friends..
and what's this man.. what is this..
im trying my best to be friends with u.
even if i feel like klau teserempak..
i know im just crying in my heart..
but i just act ok ill act my very best in front of u..
to try act as a friend.. i promise ill try..
yeah. thanks for adding more burdens in my life. Just thanks for everything..
and now i had this fucking dream this morning..
yeah u were msging me..
saying, u nga uat pe'..
and i replied as usual and i ask,' u ktne?'..
and u said,' im at my baby's at boon lay'.
and i didnt reply after that.
when i woke up, i can feel that sickening feeling in my heart.
yeah. i dunno what ur friends r thinking..
so they think girls r like that..
they think they know too much..
ask them to find someone they truly love and ask the girl to break with them..
ask them to try.. just try..
then tell me straight to my face how they feel..
and if u haf friends who have gone years with their girls..
ask them whether they r friends with that girl still?
don't talk to me like u all know anything..
u dunno how i feel..
that is why i only ask advices from the ones whom had a status YEAR in their relationship b4.
i dont ask someone who hasnt even reach that peak.
it's like asking them ,' how's my life like?'..
fuck! they're fucking clueless.
they can only tell u things like mcm phm.
im not trying to insult. but im telling u what my thoughts are.
and i tried asking some people for advice.
im sorry but i swear whatever u all say doesnt make sense.
ok..
yeah sure.. if you all really wanna crumble my life.
yes. ok.. i got it.. you've been half way successful.
im already crumbling.. hows that..
now you're all happy?
“ I’m so myself & I do random things. “
Andreas [♥]