i feel so
stupid n
scared right now. urgh! well we'll get to tt part later. today suppose to go find keje but in the end tk menjadi. haiyo. so i n sab already siap to go out since 10am and in the end we went off at 6pm. hw pathetic is tt. well play comp at big mac before heading to dat busstop.k im like the
dumbest kiddo ever.
stupidest mistake ive ever make. just
DUMB la. sickly
DUMBDUMB. pening oredi about it now. think of it too much. well in the end my B gets mad at me. he like scold me or sth and i just got
SCARED. i mean he sound like my mom seh suddenly. i was jus sooooo
speechless and
frightened. i just felt really really
hot then
cold and then
numb. now like want to get sick. k no offence i almost cried but tahannnye tahan. haiyo. he thot im mrajok but frankly speaking, its my ferst time going thru diz kinda situation. so im sooooooo speechless. my mind like
BLANk sia. i felt like i dunno wad to say wad to do wad to think that it frightens me badly. k im scared again. no ive been scared from justnow.ala.wth! k i know its my fault but i felt like its equivalent to a million wrong doings of my life even though pple tried teling me everyone makes mistakes. i felt so
unforgiven right now. he said his not scolding me but he sound so different. just not hym. maybe im a spoilt brat. k den im sucha spoil brat den. heckno.ive gone thru far more worst situation then diz. but maybe when someone u love like scold u , it just hit at the right spot sia. tros mendiamnye. now mcm nk manje2 pn i feel like scared or sumtin. maybe tts nt da word..ouh its ackward. yeah. ackward. he said he'll gimme one more chance. ok2. da
stress plak. see la. da lame tk mataer ale2 mataer cam i cant handle situations gituk. argh! fark la! and tk pena2 laki knl2 mcm sial gituk ale2 gini eh..asl la must happen now.it just
farking suck sia. im like always getting good2 pple nw im getting farked up pple making my life more
fucked-up. im seriously innocent seh. haiyo. im not even near to bad and this is what i get in return. now he thinks im like shit.ala. wateverlaa.. i just want to slp and just slp n slpn slp.. haiz.. PS. thnx sabby n munira for the comfort. it was nyce planning da picnic thingee.kinda get my mind off issues. haiz.. k slp n slp n slp n slp n slp......
“ I’m so myself & I do random things. “
Andreas [♥]